Trust. Trust is a really big word. According to dictionary.com, trust means alot of things if used in different contexts but the ones I want to point out are:
1. reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing;
2. a person on whom or thing on which one relies;
3. charge, custody, or care.
Today I just found out that my trust has once again been violated. Today, I just found out that the one person whom we've been living with for the past 22 years have been violating that trust from time to time. I don't know whether I'm more upset for the things I've lost or more dissapointed in knowing that she could still do that to us after such a long time. This isn't the first time as well. We've given her many chances but it still seems to be happening. Although we don't have proper proof that she did it, there is no one else in the house who would do it. When it all started, we thought it was her friends that did it because they occassionally came to the house and we let them. But when confronted, she denied that her friends did it. And if it wasn't them, doesn't that mean she's kinda pointing towards herself?
I was really upset about this. I even started tearing. I didn't want to show my dad and sister (because they were in the car) but it really makes me wonder, do all people that live with you apart from your family are out there to try and hurt you in some sort of way? Be it - emotionally, or monetary. Because that seems to be what's happening to me in the past year. I seriously wonder whether this will leave a scar in me. Would I be able to trust people again?
10:38 AM |
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Currently listening : Jason Mraz - I'm Yours
Been wanting to blog for a while now but always procrastinated. There were actually a lot of things I wanted to blog about but that moment has gone and the feelings I felt so strongly has passed, that it's not really worth talking about now. Long story short? Wanted to blog about the stupid foreign worker following me and my sister in Low Yat (but I'm guessing most people would have known that already from my Facebook. This by the way was a little scary!). Then, it was just this morning when I wanted to blog about the difference about Malaysia and Australia and whether or not I should go back considering the circumstances.
Then it was my parents who kinda pissed me off as I was heading out like 4 hours ago (now this, I can still blog since it's kinda still fresh in my head). So, I was just heading out to meet a coupla of friends for drinks and as I was going out, my mum asked where I was going etc. My parents then told me to becareful but the way they said it was as though that they didn't want me to go out at all! The tone they said it in - it was infuriating! I know it's hard to believe how a word which is meant to be caring like "becareful" can have such adverse affects. But trust me, if you knew my parents the way like I do (which sadly only me and siblings do), they will understand. What do expect me to do?! Just stay home and rot at night?! I need a life too okay?! Geez! Sometimes I just feel like I'm suffocating!
Anyway, meeting up with my friends was kinda good. We just talked rubbish like we used to in uni and it was great! Although, this time, all of us, well at least most of us had a common problem - we were unemployed. It's weird to see how all of us changed through time. The topics we talked about, the worries we had. I just sometimes wished that we could go back to the first few years of uni where nothing bothered us and everything was a happy-go-lucky situation. I wish I could turn back time.
12:20 PM |
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TMD = The Mookie Daily
Haha! What do you guys think about that name? Haha! I think it sounds kinda funky! Maybe I'll keep it for when I have my own magazine or newspaper! LOL! My friend thought of it. We were just talking about how his article will be appearing in a magazine which is featuring young Malaysian entrepreneurs. This friend of mine started his own wedding photography business in Sydney and is doing pretty well at the moment! Congrats! I'm so happy that he could turn his passion into a business because then will he actually enjoy his job and that's what I think what everyone should be aiming for. Not everyone can reach where you are and you should be proud! :D So to all my friends out there in the land down under, if you're looking for a good photographer, look for him - Justin Oh Wedding Photography. A link to his website has also been added under the link section. Go check his stuff out! He's pretty good! :D
Alright. Since I've given my advertising speech for Justin, it's down to the more exciting stuff! Haha.. Well, for
those who don't know already, me and Mun Yee managed to get tickets to Wang Lee Hom's concert in May!!! Haha.. I know it's really far away but I'm really excited and it was only today that we got our tickets confirmed! So yea! We can't wait! And everybody PLEASE... HE'S MY HUSBAND OK?! Hahaha... LOL! Oh, and for the guys out there who thinks he's gay - you're just jealous of his good looks. And for the girls - what am I saying, no girl in the right mind would want to think he's gay! Haha! But seriously, I don't think he is. I tried googling it and everyone says that it's a rumour! He even denied it in one of the interviews which is on youtube! Just cause he wants to focus on his career doesn't mean his gay!
Current fav songs from him: Xin Tiao, Ling Yi Ge Tian Tang
Anyways, I said I was going to blog more once I got back from Singapore, well, so here it is. I didn't really do much actually. Most of the time, I was either eating or just chilling out with friends which I really didn't mind. The most exciting thing I did was probably learn how to ride a bike. Yes - everyone I've told so far has asked me the same question: "You don't know how to ride a bike?!" And the answer is Yes - I don't know how to ride a bike. But hey! I realised that I'm not the only one! I have come to know a few more people who doesn't know how to cycle so leave me alone! Haha! Anyways, this is a picture of me on a bicycle - DUH! :P
You wouldn't believe what happened to me while I was learning how to cycle. Haha! So, I was just minding my own business, trying to learn how to balance the bike (at my own pace). Suddenly, this little kid cycled past me and screamed "HAHA! SLOWPOKE!!" I just stood there in awe! Haha! I didn't know whether to hide my face in shame or to scream back at that little kid for being so rude! But in the end, I didn't do anything anyway. LOL.
Last thing on my list which I HAVE to tell everyone because I'm so proud is..... I woke up at 5.30 to go for a 10km run this morning! I stopped once for about 30 secs maybe because it was a really steep uphill but that's about it! It took me about 1 hour and 10 mins which apparently is pretty good time! So am REALLY HAPPY! :D
7:21 PM |
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Just a quick blog to introduce a song. It's probably my favourite song right now. Go and listen to it. I have the song if anyone wants it too! Let me know and I'll send it right over! :D
David Archuleta - A Little Too Not Over You
It never crossed my mind at all
That's what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else
It is for the best
I know it is
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside
And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out
Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
Memories suppose to fade
What's wrong with my heart
Shake it off let it go
Didn't think it would be this hard
Should be strong, moving on
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside
And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out
Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
Maybe I regret
Everything I said
No way to take it all back
Yeah
Now I'm on my own
How I let you go
I'll never understand
I'll never understand
Yeah, ohhh.
Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
And I really don't know what to do
I'm just a little too not over you
12:46 AM |
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Haha! After so many years/months of not blogging in my Xanga, I have decided to try my hand again in blogging. This time, here - on blogspot because what was said in Xanga, should stay in Xanga. Now, let's see how long this can last eh? Hehe... Why I decided to start blogging? I think cause I was bored and I just really wanted to type or say stuff. Does anyone get that feeling? Haha.. Like sometimes, when I have nothing to do, I would randomly email my friends even though there's not really much to say. I would do it just for the sake of having something to do. LOL! So, I guess this kinda reflects on how "informational" my blog will turn out eh? Haha..
Quick updates about me? Well, for those that don't know, I have moved back to Malaysia. Kinda had a job lined up but due to current economic conditions that fell through. Been trying to apply for jobs on jobstreet (don't even get me started on this. I think I can do a WHOLE blog just on how ridiculous it is) but that isn't really working either. So, am now working (or at least trying to work) for my dad while kinda looking for a job (not actively), and if I do get one - congratulations to myself. But if not, I will be thinking of going to China to brush, or should I say LEARN up on my mandarin for about 6 months! Hehe...
I have been back since mid of Jan. From then until now, I think I have spent maybe half my time travelling. I have been to Thailand over the Chinese New Year, US - New York and also the UK - London (for 2 days) for personal family matters. I will be leaving for Singapore tomorrow morning and won't be back till Monday! *Woots*
Hmm.. I think that's basically the gist of what has been happening. More to come after my trip I guess! :D
Good night!
12:10 AM |
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